So much for dreams – the one I’ve been praying about just went poof. Nada. Zilch. I wanted my dream to be realized so badly and, once again, it just went up in flames. God, why can’t something good happen for a change? It is very, very difficult to remain motivated especially since every time I blink, all potentially good things disappear into the utter devoid of life’s nothingness. Yes, I’m being cynical. Yes, I’m being pessimistic. I just want for something good to happen – just once. Something that would help eliminate the meaninglessness of a life gone awry. I’m not going to belabor the matter now – I’m just devastated to learn, once again, that another dream is now gone. I don’t know where else to turn and this last one seemed so hopeful. I was so CLOSE to having it realized. Please God, PLEASE send a bit of guidance.